Puffy eyes

 So about a week ago my right eye got all swollen and it hurt so bad. I couldnt open it or close it without there being such terrible pain. The only way I could find relief was if I cried. So I cried a lot this past week. I called the doctor who couldnt see me but could prescribe me eyedrops over the phone so I have been taking them 4 times a day as i was told to do I just didnt know how long to take them and yesterday I didnt take any at all because my eye looked and felt great BUT now of course it is swollen and puffy and hurts again so I restarted the eye drops BUUUT I told you all that So i could tell you how awful Ive been feeling because I am a makeup addict. I rarely go anywhere without a full face of makeup on. I mean I put make up on before I go to the gym. And this whooole week I havent been able to wear any! I am losing my mind. I absolutely hate this. I had to throw out all my eye make up and I bought some thats new and its pretty and I cant wear it because my eye hates me and wants me to suffer!!!! Hopefully a few more days and my eye will love me again and I can look pretty again!

"Someone Like You"

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead. 

   Not entirely sure why but this song breaks my heart every time I hear it. And its been on replay in my head a lot lately. Usually when I've found a song like this it relates to something in my life. But for some reason I cannot find a reason to love it like i do. Something to ponder I suppose. 

 Havent really gone into my health recently and I have to tell you its kind of a relief. I went through my phase of " I should talk about my cf, find others like me who get it" and I found a few or rather 2 that I am close to and thats enough for me. I dont need the drama that a lot of them tend to bring. I am perfectly content to just not talk about it and go about my daily business. But in case any of you were worried. Im good. Breathing good, doing all the stupid stuff im supposed to lol.. 

  Tomorrow is Payday I am sooooooooo jazzed! On the 15th I get my nails done and then I am saving the rest. I might just might make an appointment to start a diff tattoo, I know Isaiah doesnt like the idea since I havent finished my side so I probably wont but I dont know I want something different. Ehh I guess we'll see. 

Weekends SUCK

 Ok so I worked my first sunday..i least i think it was. Omg soooo busy it never stopped which is not my complaint. My complaint is for ALL parents who ignore their child screamingbellowingcryingsobbingwhininghittingcomplaininglickingthecounter. Basically all of that <-- nonsense needs to stop. NOW. Now no i do not have children but being around children like this make me feel blessed that I am childless because quite honestly I dont know how you proud parents do it. It must be rewarding or something because I wanted to smack these children and parents over the head. I dont doubt its hard going shopping with little ones and its tough hearing "i want I need I want" allll day but my god if your child is screeching like a banchee PLEASE take them outside or try to console them or something. Ignoring them completely only makes them louder and makes others in the store want to suffocate you with plastic bags. 

On a completely separate note I spotted the elusive BearCat tonight and threw my phone and chased him down the street demanding he let me love him. The little bastard got away...but my phone did not. space key is permanently stuck down. Awesome. 

Oh no...IM old

SO I am minding my own business getting ready for a night of some sushi when OUT OF NO WHERE I notice my roots are GRAY. Yes as in "old lady please get in the slow lane because you are old" gray. I have no idea what I am going to do. Well obviously a dye job is in order but do you know what this means?! My hair is ready to be middle aged and my body is right there encouraging it! So now what do I have to look forward to? Depends? Those ugly old people velcro shoes? I guess I should order a pair in tan and black since I wear those the most and consider getting my mouth fitted for dentures...Maybe one of those Life Alert systems so when Isaiah goes to work and I fall at least someone can help me when I break a hip. Today I woke up and thought "today is gonna be crap, go back to sleep" BUT nooooooo I wanted to get up and go, little did I know my body is ready to settle down in one of those motorized chairs and continue the damn aging process. Better get to bed it is nine after all. OLD OLD OLD