Ehhh

 So I've been taking a very zen approach to life these days, I cut some people out who were nothing but drama and have pretty much been drama free for about a week. Its been nicerelaxingcoolamazing to sign onto facebook and not see my newsfeed full of bull shit from other people complaining about other people who they then go and talk to and want to be besties with..kinda odd. I removed all affiliation with CF and that drama because it took me a while but i realized I wasnt raised to let CF define me and therefore have no need to feel support 24/7 because its not a major part of my life, its a small part that occasionally tries to take over until i beat it down with antibiotics. ;) It was nice getting to complain to people who 100 percent get it but at the same time I have a pretty awesome group of people who i neglected because I wanted to know other Cfers and that wasnt cool man. You know the other night was the first time in a looooooong time I went to a bar and had a kick ass time, wish the hubby could have gone though he was seriously missing =( 

 I have not heard from dear old "dad" since the dna test and to be honest i only miss him sometimes but how can you miss someone who never wanted to love you? I may be biased but I think Im pretty awesome and if you dont wanna be apart of that "dad" thats cool. His child support check didnt show this week and Im not surprised. But more surprisingly Im not angry either. Less than a month ago i would have flipped my lid and been trying to find a way to cuss him out but now I just dont care to waste the energy. 


"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can, and
the wisdom to know the difference."

^^ thats been my motto these days and i feel like im doing pretty good. Heading into the holidays and I cant even tell you how excited I am. I love all that holiday junk, the lights, the music, everyones energy! Its all pretty fantastic!!