Venting.

  So if you are having a good day you should just leave my bloggy thingy because I am pissed off and I am gonna be complaining a whole bunch. 

 That being said, I woke up this morning and just knew today was gonna be an iffy day. Now I wanna start with that I wont be talking shit about anyone. I wont try to make you all be on my side. I think the problem Im having today is completely fixable but maybe we just shouldnt live where we live. Maybe the saying is true that you just cant live with anyone else once you are married. I know Im starting to feel that way. I want my own space I want to do things my way and not have to worry about other people in the house. And its completely possible that I am taking things way more serious than they actually are. I dont wanna have to live somewhere where there is tension, no matter who its between the rest of the house feels it and the rest of us suffer. So instead of stewing and getting mad and waiting to see how this turns out tonight I was proactive and started applying for jobs, I found an apartment who will possibly lease to my hubby and i on what we make now and we would just have to take the bus to work and what not. And if my car can either get fixed quickly or at this point maybe selling it is the better option and just getting a crappy commuter car would be the way to go...Im ok with not getting to do all the things we always wanna do, or maybe eating crappy food for a bit to just get out of the tension we are in. It could be helpful for everyone involved if we didnt live here. I guess I'll know for sure tonight but I hate waiting for that time to get here. I hate dreading it all day and having it put me in a bad mood with everyone else because I have no idea what the outcome will be all I can say is maybe it would be the best for everyone involved if we lived at our own apartment and came to visit the people we live with. I love them all so much that the thought of not living with them makes me wanna cry but at the same time it might ease the tension if we had our own space and they had theirs. 
  On a happier note i am fixing things.