Finally Found It.

  So we found THE apartment! *cue angelic music and bright shiny light* Its freakin magical! Upstairs unit with vaulted ceilings, HUGE living room and dining room annnnd the bedroom is gorgeous!! My only iffy part is that there are a ton of redwood trees all around the complex so there are a TON of spiders. Of all shapes and sizes. Its a little creepy but Isaiah says as long as we sweep around the door and get some eucalyptus oil for around the doors and windows so they run screaming from us! hehe. I am so excited and anxious to move in!!  OOH and the best part its only 875 a month with a 1075 deposit!! Yee!! So now its major save save save.

  I am pretty jazzed that summer is almost over, or rather feels like its already over. I am ready for pumpkins and leaves on the ground and of course Halloween candy!!!! 

 On a happy note Isaiah got promoted at work YAY! He is now Mr Manager of Operations so he's been in good spirits lately and Ive been riding on his coat tails of happiness lol. Finally it feels like all the crap we've dealt with and all the tough times are coming out with us on top. =) 
 

Its been a while.

  Oh my is has been a little bit since I have posted, a lot has been going on. We lost internet for a while and I cannot post from my phone because it is lame! But here I am. I started working, its been....crazyannoyingstressfulscarymakesmetiredmakesmegrouchy. But at least there is new money flow which will help us to get an apartment. We might have put off moving out until later simply to save all of my income so that we may have deposit money and at least 2 months rent saved up. But Isaiah and I agreed that we should do something each month to spoil ourselves so I am going to get my nails done. Just gotta find the right nail person and get a move on lol. TODAY IS PAYDAY!!! I am a little excited if you couldn't tell. My health is good right now, I am taking care of myself so that I dont get sick too often because that would be totally lame. Man all I wanna do today is lay around the house and watch cartoons but I must go to work, its only 4 hours but still. But saturday and sunday I am off so its all good. 

  So on a "Loser Sperm Donor" update!!!!!! He has been talking to me every few days I guess would be how I would describe it, we text when his girlfriend isnt home (doesnt that seem a little odd?) Now he never came right out and said that he only talked to me when she wasnt around buuuuut he did mention every time we talked he was at home while she was working. So we talked kinda randomly not about anything important but things seemed to be going alright when all of a sudden he texts me on Monday of this week and says and I quote "Megan, I want to ask u something. I would hope u understand this. I just need us both to know cuz somethings been in my head since I met you and found out scott adopted you at 11. I would like to dna us because I think its fair to both of us , if scott in fact did adopt u at 11 then my rights should be no more. I want u to have everything u deserve, I just need to be sure. Me and ur mom happened so fast I just need to be sure." and then offers "I love u and thats not going to change no matter what outcome is i would hope you understand this" Now at first I was shocked. Then raged and now I am laughable. I called my nanny and told her,  I called my mother and told her. AND then my aunt uncle and cousin got involved. So needless to say I havent heard from that DRUG ADDICTED MAMAS BOY WHO CLEARLY DOESNT HOLD HIS OWN BALLS since monday. But I dont know so much drama. what a loser.

arrggg

  So I went for a job interview today, it was totally lame. First I got there and she was with a customer so I waited, she asked if I was Megan and I said "Yes I am" She then said "I'll be with you in just a minute" and after every customer left (which was not the bad part I kind of expected her to help everyone first) she stood there for ten minutes talking with her sales assistant about absolutely nothing and finally decided she could interview me. We went outside the store where she proceeded to ask me all sorts of questions but could never make eye contact with me and kept "forgetting" what she was supposed to ask. I sail through all random and out there questions answering honestly and politely with a smile and rarely looking anywhere but at her and at the end of the interview she asked me if I had any questions, honestly I never even thought of asking anything other than when can I start, I reeeaallllyyy want this job, and then she says to me, "well I am waiting for a girl to come back from Colorado to interview on the 20th so I could probably let you know by the 25th" . Like WHAT! Why are you bothering interviewing me at all when you are willing to wait until the end of the month to interview some girl. You've clearly already made your decision why waste my time? I mean its no big loss I already have another job and am starting tomorrow but this was my job in shining armor kinda job. I really wanted to work there because well the clothes are awesome! But whatev. I'm not waiting until the end of the month. So i start officially working tomorrow and I am excited/nervous. What if i make a HUGE mistake and they laugh me out of the store! What if i have a major coughing attack and scare everyone?! I mean cashier-ing seems simple enough Ive done it at all my jobs but still its a new place and its not really like target and there arent any people that I know there already...hopefully I do ok enough that they wanna keep me. The store manager kept telling me hes looking for long term employees so maybe I can work there until I get through school. Who knows. My focus right now is start working and get an apartment! Thats all I am seeing. APARTMENT APARTMENT Apartment!

Lots going on

 Its been a crazy few days. I am just hoping it starts to calm down because I cant take anymore. I started taking my hypertonic saline and guess what! Its still as sucky as I remember and I wish I didnt have to take it. Blah. But I shouldnt complain it could be way worse. So a little gross-ness will make up in the long run. So I must clean the room today, the laundry is just chilling in its basket and I know that drives Isaiah up a wall hehehe. I've been so lazy the last few days. Yesterday I literally slept all day until Isaiah got home and then I had the hardest time going to sleep when it was time for bed. I felt like I had barely slept at all when Isaiah got up for work this morning. And I totally forgot I was supposed to drive him to work so I could help my dad out. I'll give him a call after my meds and let him know. ooooh I have a pepsi in the fridge waiting for me! I am so excited lol! Instead of writing on here during my treatments like I normally do I have been reading Harry Potter again. I love that after everything those books still make me laugh at the same jokes and still makes me sad when something bad is happening. Ive only gotten to the third one but I still love them! Is it totally nerdy that if I could figure out something I wanted I would totally get a Harry Potter inspired tattoo? haha. I cannot wait to be able to start working on my tattoos again. I gotta finish my side then I am moving on to my arm I want to get the little mermaid on my forearm. I want to start planning for my sleeve on my left arm and I have this really cute idea of exactly what I want but Im sure its going to take a while. I'll keep you posted. My cf is good Ive been taking all my meds like I am supposed to and doing my treatments and vests. I think since becoming a part of the cf groups on facebook and seeing what others are going through with the same disease its put me in perspective. Before I started talking to other people I felt like half my life was already over and what was the point in trying if it all ends the same. But i guess that could be said about any life. Nothing is promised and one day I'd rather look back and think "damn that was awesome" rather than knowing I didnt do anything because I was afraid. Ive got a lot to look forward to. Maybe it wont be kids but it'll be doggies and my husband coming home and smiling when he sees me. I had this specific idea of what I thought was important and what I needed and now I realize what I need I already have.